4/26/2012~ Aaron and I have counted down the weeks, days, and hours until today. The day we would get to see our son or daughter on the ultrasound machine. We were so excited! Imagining if he/she would have blue eyes or brown, tall or short, male, or female. Our appt was for 12:45, but the doctor didn't come in until about 1:30. She spoke with us about which meds are OK to take for allergies, what to stay away from at work, and getting clearance for Clinicals. Then she started the ultrasound. I didn't see anything on the screen, nothing that resembled a 12 week old baby.  TMI, but she decided to do an transvaginal ultrasound, which also showed nothing except the gestational sac, and the yolk sac.  She sent us over to the radiology dept, because they have better equipment than she does. They determined that the baby died at 6 weeks, 4 days. There was no heart beat. Aaron held my hand, there wasn't really much to say. I'm sorry doesn't seem appropriate, and really, there wasn't anything either of us could do to change the outcome. The choice before us is to take a medication that has a bunch of side effects to make my body miscarry, or to do a D&C.  I have another U/S scheduled for Tuesday to make sure there are no changes. I don't expect the outcome to be different than today.

                                                              April 26, 2012- Baby Hecker~ You were loved by Mommy, Daddy, Becca, Lauren, and Nicolas. <3